Honestly I keep forgetting I still have this page here at all. A lot has happened and plenty has changed. Its almost a wonder that I'm the same breathing person that started writing before hand. Let's see......I graduated from college......found a new g/f.....joined THE fraternity...(Alpha Phi Alpha if you didn't already figure this out)....and gained a career. All in all that's pretty momentous. Been involved in each for almost two years now at this point and I can definitely say that I've learned, listened, and educated myself in all aspects. Suffice to say though, I still miss the yester-years of high school and beginning college. Find myself now mentoring those younger than me to follow and not follow in some of the same steps I once took. For some its almost like looking in a mirror while with others I see the better aspects of myself in younger, livelier forms. But I, myself, have to continue to grow and transpose myself as well. Hence the title.....2.0.
I find myself in the rabbit hole of paradoxes, hypocrisies, and half-truths that exist in what is dubbed as the "Adult World". Suffice to say, most times I definitely wish I didn't have to take this "red pill" that has led me to responsibilities, duties, chores, and a multitude of conscious decision-making. From my career, to family, to social, and my personal.....all hang by single threads of fate that hang in the balance by each choice (or lack thereof) that I make. At times its suffocating and annoying...however there are moments where I am positioned to good for others and the loved ones in my life. However I often wonder how it is I am to succeed in my own lifestyle and by my own merit. I feel as if one of man's biggest conundrums is the consistent search on finding the "one, true correct answer/choice in life". Such an ideal this thought is that drives one to either greatness or insanity. "How does one, battle the odds and challenge adversity only to find himself in a cyclic and never-ending battle/search for the duration of his tenure?" I find myself pitted against many earthly and worldly desires that without faith I would surely become consumed and die of. I won't make a huge comeback post of this but I will trail off in my thoughts and leave those who care to read the idea that maybe the only thing that challenges adversity is adversity itself. And that one should really think about what it is to succeed and prosper in this challenging, hypocritical, and biased world.
